All that I want is to wake up fine tell me that I’m alright that I ain’t gonna die.
No one believes what I’m feeling right now.
The opposite of being optimistic is pessimistic. That’s what I’m feeling right now. The inner me felt insincere and I know I’m so fake happy. These hard times feeling sensitive and emotional is okay. Feeling weak, feeling as if you have reached your limit.- all of this is okay you are not overacting. Let your emotions outlet the tears roll. I am completely a breakdown period.
The world is really awful nowadays and the sincerity is scary that’s why I decide to hide the pain through silence and fake smiles. smile is my masks to hide the pain but when the teardrop comes the masks slowly melted.
“Don’t force yourself to feel positive all the time. It’s okay to feel negative emotions sometimes but after experiencing and expressing those emotions, you have to let go.”
Through these years. It’s not easy to heal especially when people around you give you anxiety that makes you feel cry at night. Even my guardian angel can’t calm me down when the teardrop comes. The next following day I feel nothing happen on that night. Would you like to know why I’m feeling this right now?
Once upon a time, my anxiety hit me hard because of the people who didn’t see my worth feeling like I’m being a loser for all times I don’t have a great achievement at all. most of the time I feel worst I don’t have a great capability I don’t see the real sincerity and lack of respect.
“What I need to do to prove for myself?”
I’m not a princess or queen as you expected but my personality can prove a lot of things to see my worth. My genuine heart can show sympathy for everyone and I do respect for no matter what. This is me and I have all of this I’m not perfect as you expected but I have this.
I feel pressure as of the moment. as I wish I want to see the person who see my worth but unfortunately it’s impossible right now. I already lose my hope as of the moment and I don’t see any chances. Despite for this I want to remind myself to keep going and choose to be happy even life is hard.
When Anxiety hits you read this!
I know you’re tired even though you just woke up but just do your best today. That’s all anyone can ask of you. That’s all you can ask of yourself. Don’t push yourself too much.
I know you’re scared to fail. So much so, you’re striving for perfection and you beat yourself up every time you fall short. You’re your own worst enemy and I’m here to tell you, you don’t need to be.
I know you’re worrying and thinking too much. And everyone is telling you to relax. But you can’t seem to.
I want you to know, it shows a sign of strength caring as much as you do.
This is not a weakness but a virtue of yours. You have a heart that doesn’t want to hurt people. You come off as paranoid but I know you just want to make the right choices. Know that you already are. You’re doing great.
I know your heart is racing but you disguise it with a smile. In those moments where anxiety is controlling you, take a deep breath. Do whatever you need to that will calm your nerves. It’s okay to be like this and you don’t need to change. Just learn to breathe through it. To accept it, and conquer it.
I know you hate yourself for breaking down and crying in private because of something you couldn’t control even if it was something small. Stop hating yourself. Stop beating yourself up. It’s okay to have those moments as long as you don’t let them define you.
There is so much more to you than your anxiety.
So when your anxiety is getting the best of you and you’re hating yourself for it, I want you to remember this:
It will all be okay. Your entire life is going to be okay. The relationships and the people who belong in your life will not leave you.
No one thinks you are a burden as you run over details a million times of things playing out in your mind. You do whatever you need to, to live with this. Everyone else will learn to adapt also.
Remember, you are loved. You are needed. You are cared about. And your anxiety does not define you, so don’t let it.\”
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