The Hardest Part

   Losing someone is hard to accept especially when that person is the most person important in your life. Yah I feel grief as of the moment. My grandpa passed away last September 18 2019 for kidney disease. My world crash when I saw my cousin's black candle for her profile photo. During the time when he diagnosed for kidney failure, I didn't visit him because I don't want to see him suffering for the pain it totally breaks my heart. for some reason matter. That time I pray that one day he's getting better and I really want to see him when he recovers for his sickness. Yah! I'm still hoping for the best but no one knows when life has ended so until the day he dies I didn't visit him.
  The day before the burial I tell the words that I didn't tell before. I begged for forgiveness but he's not responding anymore. How I wish I have a time machine to move backward to say my last words my heart be badly broken.

  Every one of us is losing something precious in our lives. Everyone leave and goodbye. Sometimes we don't know your special day will be your last. It's scared but it's true. We need to appreciate everyone embrace. We can't find the light through the darkness we need to ask for forgiveness and not for holding grudges. All of us are special That's how it is grief and love are conjoined. It doesn't go away it becomes part of you, so simple but deeply meaningful.

 Everything has a reason why would that happen and all I know is that's the best for all. Losing someone is never easy in fact we don't know how to accept that they're not coming back, but life must be continued and we need to keep going. It's natural to feel the pain but don't make your life miserable. In this situation many people begin to feel hopeless, helpless and worthless and worse they feel really depressed. You need to let go start your life with the new beginning. Allow yourself to flow love in your heart to cope with your grief and sadness. Accept the pain will indicate you to moving on. Once you go there that's the time that you can heal yourself in a way that you can enjoy things. It takes time but it really works.

 When I feel down and demotivated I've always listen toed this song to overcome my sadness. Yah! This song means a lot to me and very meaningful. This song titled Fix you by Coldplay one of my most favorite songs.