Before the year ends.
I would like to say this year is full of improvement and encouragement despite all of pain heartaches that I suffered. Thank you for awesome days that I spent and I' am very lucky to having chances to achieve my goals in life. I'll already accept the fact that to much expectations makes you feel disappointment so I stop overthinking to much. I realize that I gave too much time to the person who didn't give me worth. I suffocate things that makes me feel anger and grudges.
February 2018 I suffered deeply heartbreaks. "I felt like did I deserve this kind of hurt?" I keep asking myself why? Then after healing process I decide to do the things that makes me feel happy.
We all know it's not an easy to keep moving forward it takes a lot of process for you to make feel better.
April 2018 I decide to leave my job as customer service representative to explore myself. "How is it?" Okay let me tell you.
I'll go hike for adventure then after I'll go some concerts and gigs because I'm a huge fan of music.
I'll go some adventures and explore myself I release my doubts and I enjoy myself alone.
May 2018 I got an new job as Admin Staff in Hotel near in my hometown and keep my life busy.
until one day..
I realize my life is kind of mess. I've wasting my time to pleasing people to accept me I got a fear when it comes about their criticisms. I've always say YES and no matter what it is. I've been struggling to authentic myself in a way of they don't like me like that. My life has been prison because of their judgement.
June to present I've continued to write my blog for healing in myself. Yah! As I've mentioned my blog is all about my blog journey and thoughts in life. Many people relate about my post because it's kind of realistic and I'm very realistic person. I love writing to keep inspired others. "I hope there's one person who appreciate my post" Thank you so much. Blogging is great way to boost out my feelings instead to tell it verbally, to those people who have time to read my blog thank you so much you me feel inspired.
Music is my healer and poetry is my confession. both of these can help me out to tell my feelings.
How?
I really love to sing but I know in myself I' am not the good one. HAHAHHAHA! 😹😹😹 I just enjoy the moment when I sing a song.
Poetry gives me an idea to express my feelings. My first poetry is all about farewell to the person I love. "not a good story though"
and after all of these.
My life give thousands of definitions. I just wake up in a mirror of reality and I've starting to paint my own reality with the love joy and acceptance. I' am starting to forgive to the all of person who hurt me most. These things can help me feel grow to become a matured person.
Goodbye heartaches and say hello to the wonderful awesome in 2019.
Happy new year guys!
Your girl
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I totally agree I can listen to soothing music and write poetry for hours! I have written poetry since I was a pre teen and have always found solace. Of course from working I dont get to do it as often but I want to get back into it at the beginning of the year.
ReplyDeleteWe're with you! We love to listen to soothing music when we wake up and before bed. Poetry would be a great goal for 2019!
Deleterelieving to read,,,, even i thought 2018 finished but looks like still something to do
ReplyDeleteI am a published poet ♡ Poetry and music restores my soul! Here's to an even better 2019!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds as though you have certainly had a year of up and downs. I hope 2019 will be a happy time for you. I wish you all the best! I agree, music is so good for the soul.
ReplyDeleteI really hope crossfingers! :)
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ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful thing! Yes, before the year is over copy some of your ideas because I love to write and sometimes there is nothing better than to put our own black and white
I've always worried what others thought of me as well and afraid to say no to people. This is changing and in 2019 I'm focusing on my own happiness
ReplyDeleteThere is a certain healing quality to writing. I find it very therapeutic to let myself be vulnerable in form of my own blogging and journaling. Setting goals for yourself that are reasonable makes for a very successful start to a new year. May your 2019 be full of happiness & peace!
ReplyDeleteSounds like you've done some discovery! Music is great. Listening to music always puts me a better frame of mind.
ReplyDeleteLike you said, it's so important to paint your reality and find your joy. I have found that soothing music helps me relax too.
ReplyDeleteJust continue discovering things about yourself. We are not without crises.
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ReplyDeleteHeartaches are no fun. Where would we be without heartaches? Heartaches are definitely a challenge but also humbles us in all aspects. Heartaches give us the opportunity to reflect release and move forward. I wish you well in 2019!
ReplyDeleteWhat a 2018 year you had. I wish you well in 2019 and hope it will get easier.
ReplyDeleteIt looks like you had an eventful year! Keep going and growing and 2019 will be awesome. :)
ReplyDeleteSounds like 2018 definitely had a lot of ups and downs. At least you are finding yourself and can make next year great!
ReplyDeleteI love reading poetry and can not write any.Having said that, I really enjoyed reading your post, thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you have a happier and easier 2019. It looks like you already made great choices in 2018 to make your life better. I promote a saying that matches yours: Do more of what makes you happier. :)
ReplyDeleteI use my writing as part of the healing process for my brain injury. Congrats on taking control of your life. Identifying the challenges in your life and tackling them head on will give you the control you need to heal.
ReplyDeleteI dont write poetry, but I just love reading it, especially in a calm, soothing atmosphere. It's like I drift off.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on all your growth and personal development in 2018! And here's to an even better 2019 for you!
ReplyDeleteThank you Flossie <3
DeleteSeems like you really had a great year. This coming year, I hpe you find more happiness and success in your life.
ReplyDeleteI love listening to music to and reading poetry too. And those are healer and confessions as well. Just like you, I had so many ups and down this year.
ReplyDeleteWow, sorry that you had to go through a heartache, dear. Glad that you've found your way to express your feelings and inspire people. Cheers for a better year ahead!
ReplyDeleteI really feel like 2018 was kind of a rollercoaster. Hopefully 2019 will be more of a smooth ride.
ReplyDeletesounds like you had a busy 2018 too. music is a great healer, there is always a song for any mood or emotion, I love that about it.
ReplyDeleteBlogging has been a huge part of my healing journey. I'm glad you took the time to listen to yourself and be honest with what you wanted
ReplyDeleteI have to say, 2018 was a trying one for me as well. I hope that 2019 brings you much happiness, health and success.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like 2018 was a challenge for you- but you’ve done a great job taking lessons from it. I hope you have a wonderful 2019!
ReplyDeleteI totally can't write poetry but I love reading it! I hope that you have a happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteBlog is a great way to share your feelings and express yourself. I think it is the best way to heal yourself as well.
ReplyDeleteI am happy you found an outlet to release your feelings. I hope you find happiness and joy in the new year.
ReplyDeleteLife is a journey and every year has its ups and downs. I try to live in present as much as I can and accepting whatever comes my way. Happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year to you! I am hoping 2019 is full of goodness for you. I also try to live in the present because living in my head and the "what-ifs?" causes problems.
ReplyDeleteIt takes time to figure yourself out :) Keep thinking deeply and taking time to work through life's ups and downs!
ReplyDeleteGirl if you are doing something you enjoy, then that’s all that matters. We should never do something that just doesn’t bring us joy and is simply a means to an end.
ReplyDeleteLet's be all safe and sound as we enter the new year. Year of 2019. Let declare it's success! God bless everyone!
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