Blue

By Maysz - April 10, 2018

 On track : 100 years Five for fighting.


🎶🎶🎶I'm 22 for a moment
🎶🎶🎶
 And he feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars


      Current mood: Thinking Things far away . . .

    typingg...








        I fall in love with the guy that I never met. He is blue eyes his favorite color is blue. He is marvel and justice league fan. He love music so that's why I love him. I don't want to mention his name because for some important matters. He is a good person for me because based on my observation while were chatting and getting to know each other he is faithful in God. So what's the story behind this? I dare you to figure out!

     This person gave me a reason that love is mysterious on his ways. Mysterious because I already fall in love with him even were not already met. and he don't know about it. Because I'm afraid to tell him that I love him. I'm afraid what's his reaction if he can know about my feelings. Rejection is my fear so it's better for me to keep my feelings alone. I know he has a higher standard when regards to choose something " You know what I mean! " but anyway before that now unfortunately we cannot talk because he is busy person. and he wants to pursue his career. I don't want to disturb him because I know were different. Yes right now he keep me hanging. I'm still waiting for the answer if I let him go or I'm still holding on? because of his promises. and his said  He wants to meet me in person someday. So basically He's interested right?
 ( I hope so! ) I learned a lot of things because of him. He's really matured and Independent. We have an age long gap so that's why. He loves superheroes. He's body conscious dietician were opposite. 





     Right now I'm so sick about love sometimes it tears me up! Because I encountered worst feelings at all. I'm not that naive I'm not born yesterday to know about things. It feels there's a lot of wounds deep inside. Totally it breaks my heart! I'm the person that easily to attached to someone and worst I am the person that it takes a long time to forget and move on. Sad life but it's true. I'll pretend to don't care about anything however it kills me softly. This is me unlucky about love. How I wish someday I'll deserve someone  that he makes me happy.








On track: Hanging by a moment
"Hanging by a moment"

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment
I'm hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment here with you








 If you read this right now. I wish that your in good and I miss you so much !😢😢😢💔💔


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52 comments

  1. Hi. Nice blog post makes me reminisce my experiences back in the day. :)
    Been in that kind of situation but never took any plunge of getting into a relationship in which I really don't personally know the person.
    People breaks each others' hearts. But do you know the only ONE who doesn't? Yup, the Jesus Christ.
    There are lots of confusion in this world esp when it comes to emotions.
    I suggest you seek first the ONE who so love you so dearly. The ONE who gave up HIS life just to save you and me. The ONE who loves you unconditionally, without limitations, without ifs and buts. The ONE who loves you just the way you are.
    For me, I felt secured when I did that. Then, I suppose, HE'll show you what's next in your life.
    God bless!

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  2. It’s hard to move on but it’s necessary. You have to love yourself more than any guy out there. As Gabriel Garcia Marquez said: “Nobody deserves your tears, but whoever deserves them will not make you cry.” Stay strong.

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  3. Thank you for the advice hopefully Someday there's a person that can accept me for who I am ����

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  4. Falling in love with someone you have never met face to face is rather risky. He may not be the person you think he is. Better to really 'know' a person before you give them your heart!

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    1. That's true. Falling in love that you ever met is very risk! I learned a lesson from this! Thank you for comment!

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  5. You're amazing, and the right one will come along. Till then, keep on smiling and loving. xx

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    1. Hi! Thank you for encouraging me to make smile again It can help me a lot!

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  6. You wouldn't know unless you try hun. I've been there. I was in the same situation as you, until I gathered all the courage I had and told him that he holds a special place in my heart. It turn out he feels the same way and now we're together. 2 years and counting. <3

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    1. Wow! Your so lucky! You already find the one! How I wish I have same situation like you! Hahahaha! 😂😂 thank you for the comment!

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  7. The one who's destined to be with you will eventually come along. Don't despond. In His perfect time, love will find you.

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    1. Hopefully Love will find me soonest! and I'm still hoping for the best!

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  8. While moving on sucks, it's always for the best. These are just life experiences preparing you for later. Don't give up!

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    1. Hi Nina!I know God has a purpose for everything! and I believe in that!

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  9. Wow, that's interesting how you be able to fall in love with the guy that you never met. Kind of risky, no? But anyway, all the best dear. The "one" will come along, hopefully sooner than later!

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    1. Thank you! I hope it will! but for now acceptance will make you free!

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  10. My mother always told me that when i stop looking for it, it will find me. So at a point i stopped looking to be in love. I was so in love with the idea of being in love. I stopped looking, and it found me. love sucks but it will get better

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    1. Hi Tia! I hope love will find me soon Thank you for the comment!

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  11. My Love, this is life. And more importantly, it’s YOUR beautiful bitter sweet, utterly amazing life. ❤️Deepening and personal growth doesn’t happen instantaneously for most of us - some of us, myself included, need to experience lament and loss in order to know and appreciate our gains. Honoring your courage, truth, and homecoming to Self. Xo, Evelyn PathofPresence

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  12. Wow! What an interesting post. In my opinion, you never know until you give it a try. And everything has to come naturally, nothing has to be rushed. The right is always out there somewhere.

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  13. I know this feeling! It might happen even if you meet the person. I'm on the same boat as you recently. What helps is to think about that this is not love, really, its something else this is not love at all, and the best is yet to come. Believe me, its only that you are able to feel deeply, and survive.

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    1. Honestly it really hurts! But I need to accept the fact that he's not the one! I admit I assume things. And also I expected something different but I' am only person who Assume things even it's not! My mistakes again!

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  14. That is some risky business about loving a "stranger." Just be careful girl!

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  15. What a heartfelt post and am sure you'll find someone right just along the way. In fact don't look for love, let it come to you.

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  16. Just yesterday I had a bride reach out to me (I'm a photographer!), and she told me that her and her fiancee met on instagram and after two months of talking she moved to the same state as her. It's been two years now and they're getting married! There are so many different ways of meeting people today. Hope you find what you're looking for <3

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  17. You will find someone soon its just a matter of time.Destiny will help you both to unite..
    beautifully written.. keep it up..

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  18. I am sure there will be good days for you and you'll find a way to unite. Nice article

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  19. Very heart touching post, reminded me of my some old crush or love, I still don't know what that was. :)
    I can totally relate to it. Hope you move on soon and you find the right guy for you. Best Wishes.!!

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  20. Have faith in love. It'll always make a way. It took me and my husband years before we get to live together but it's the best thing in the world. All the best!

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  21. It happens in life. You are not alone because everybody has ever dealt with his situation in their life. Good to get feet back on the ground.. Still young, still have a long way to go..

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  22. Life teaches us so many things through our relationships. Some dont work out as a matter of the law of averages. But then we cant give up. Can we?

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  23. One sided love, yeah life is unfair.

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  24. Thanks for sharing this lovely piece. Sigh....I had a bad day today & feel not being love enough by people around me. After reading, feel more comfort. Cheers,siennylovesdrawing

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  25. Love is such a beautiful emotion and one can't help falling in love ...meeting is not a must...but then one cannot bring the life to stand still too if the perceived love if life does not materialise...one got to move on..

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  26. In the past, it was so easy for me to fall in love. Now, it is so easy for me to fall out of love. I now know how to apply and step on the brakes when I am falling too fast. Beautiful blog.

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  27. people come for a specific purpose. you met him to teach you some lessons in life. it is for you to know them and apply them so you won't experience the same thing again in the future. :)

    P.S. i love these songs. :)

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  28. I think we all have a love of falling in love. The emotional high it can take you on is incomparable to any other.

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  29. I love Lifehouse! Good songs. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

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  30. wow, im in a moment where i need to hear these. Trust me im learning to let go thinking he showed me a purpose and then its completed

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  31. This was really heartfelt and i really enjoyed the read! Thanks for sharing!

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  32. People really do come and go. Great post. Reminded me of a lot of people in my past.

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  33. This is a great post. Very emotionally charged. Good luck with everything. You never know what can happen.

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  34. You are an amazing person. You have beautifully expressed your emotions. I'm sure that you will find your true love soon.

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  35. Falling in love is definitely one of those things that can hit you no matter where you are, and its ok for you to be in love with someone you haven't met. I think we all imagine someone we love without that person really being there.

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  36. Ah, the feeling of love and not having someone by your side, its so relatable, beuatiful post..

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  38. Really liked the way you have expressed your thoughts !!!. Give it some time, if it is destined, it will come to you !!!

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  39. Would you like to try out some hindi songs? We would live to suggest some on a particular topic!

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  40. Wow! This s brought back so many mémoires. I love this so much

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  41. I'm not sure about loving someone without even look at the face because sometimes it tricks you and you never know. What i'm sure about is that you will have the right one no matter when.

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  42. That is an amazing song! I really like the rhythm and the lyrics! Thanks for sharing!

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  43. This blog post reminded me of my teenage years. It was so easy and so beautiful to fall in love that time. But everything changes. We grow and we learn. The best kind of love for me now is self love. You know you can't pour anything from an empty cup.

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